Coming back home

Been awhile since I've posted on this side of the house so today i think i will!!!!! As i mentioned on the other side of the house All is really well, things are progressing where they should be and  I am in constant state of flux in my personal attack on Greg duran1 The days and nights seem to flow together nicely i am always trying to think of ways to renew and rejuvenate myself to not becoming a stagnant or bitter person who wants , wishes and needs. all of my needs are always met , never been in a place that had me needing or wanting anything i didn't already have, just human nature and some poor genetics can really fuck things up if you allow it to, and God knows i have been for the past 4o plus years trying to find ways to not find myself to be worthy of anything, and all i had were a right of passage and expected i guess? so moving to a new day and a new way of perceiving things and the values that they hold and keep, it is a new dawn for Greg these days, trying to re-establish  a new sense of self worthiness, not masked behind my arrogance or my quick witted sharp tongue to denigrate somebody before they get too close to me! It is very nice to see my progressions and see the newer ways of dealing with my life of goodness, it is not a right of passage it is a gift and I will treat it accordingly from here on out. My mind and my heart have always been in the right place, but at times it seems that my extremist mindset always wants to overheat something by thinking it thought way too many times and not act as rationale as I should. I eagerly await my guru Frank Schaeffers new book and hope to re-read his older books as a way of tuning up the soul a little and helping me to regain a little lost love and a little lost faith that sits on the fence  and needs to push onto the other side of the house. I am Worthy of the good life that i live and God knows i am always willing to work at things til i get them right, so funny how the one thing i need the least work on is loving my wife and showing her on a daily basis, not only how wonderful she is , but what she brings to my life and how she has enhanced my awareness to take one day at a time and to appreciate the goodness that we do share. it's not an accident that we are here and she always knew we would be together one day, even after the 12 year hiatus while she was married with children. Yes, she will always be known as the one that got away, and the one that i will never let go of again. Life sends some pretty amazing messages, how we answer them is where we are today, living a blessed and an incredible life as good people making good decisions and trying to help as many people as possible. Funny how my Facebook life is nearly dead, i keep it alive to stay i touch with the girls, Deb, Stacy, Bobbi, Even Nevarez and I generally communicate via text these days and love the fact that i'm writing here instead of writing over there. the whole FB experience is a failed experiment for me, i get more out of writing on my sites here and across the street than i could ever get ranting on FB, people are so PC over there and the old Greg was always looking for a fight, the newer polished Greg just speaks his mind and doesn't care if people listen or respond, this is for me and only me to defend or to offend, So game set match i always win , and the life i have is a hard fought battle to that i have won on many fronts, dodging bullets is no longer my forte and self destruction form way back is a done deal. so thanks to all my family, friends and especially my Terria, i am in a great place these days and loving to write about it all